In college, it’s all about you. What do you want to major in? What clubs do you want to join? What is your GPA? What are you good at? What job do you want to get? Will you go to grad school? At Baylor, a sense of entitlement can sneak in. With that institution on a resume, jobs are told to be granted because of the prestige of the university.
Just yesterday, I received my first interview request from New York: ABC Sports. What’s up?! It was such a relief to finally hear back from someone. However, that excitement was quickly lowered due to the Lariat’s homecoming issue and all the pages I had to prepare for the sports section. That led to a late night and a hard fought victory over my bed this morning to get to class. Armed with a giant glass of Diet Coke, I struggled through a monotonous English class, ready to end that period and fly through my next class so I could go home and hit the nap grind.
My next class, however, brought a spark of energy and conviction. In interviewing, my professor began the class with a passage from Isaiah 61:
The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor, he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound; to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.
Immediately, God brought two ideas to my heart.
Number one, I am not my own. In My Utmost for His Highest yesterday, Oswald Chambers killed it.
We are not sanctified for ourselves. We are called into intimacy with the gospel, and things happen that appear to have nothing to do with us. But God is getting us into fellowship with Himself. Let Him have His way. If you refuse, you will be of no value to God in His redemptive work in the world, but will be a hindrance and a stumbling block.
1 Corinthians 6:19 is often grouped together with verses 18 and 20, making it a ‘don’t have sex until you’re married’ reference. However, the ending of verse 19 is totally applicable to this.
You are not your own.
Conviction. All my plans for New York and post-grad have been focused on myself. I want a sweet sports gig and to be able to travel. I want to be able to help my parents pay off my loans. I want, I want I want. Hardly have I prayed about the upcoming internship. Hardly have I prayed about the direction He is calling me after graduation. Many times I have thought about how He fits into my future, but that’s a screwed up, selfish mindset. I should pray about how He has my future placed in His plan for the world.
Number two, I am viewing Baylor as to what I should be given, not how blessed I am to be here and now what I will do with it.
That was a bit confusing. Luke says it better in chapter 12
Everyone to whom much was given, of him much will be required.
Enter the parable of the talents in Matthew 25. Often, I place myself with one of the first two, wanting to work hard for Jesus. But, who am I kidding. I am lazy, y’all. I have been given a crazy amount of things, but because I want to be comfortable, I’m just going to dig a hole in the ground and keep it there until He asks for it back. Or, I am scared that I will lose some of what I have been given, so I put it underground.
So dumb! God has placed me in Baylor and will place me in other circumstances, and I am more concerned with making my own name famous than His.
Oswald Chambers kills it again with Obedience or Independence:
The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear. If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation. If i hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.